In F. Scott Fitzgerald's first novel, This Side of Paradise, we are introduced to a young man named Amory Blaine. He is a young man, seeking to find himself, and enduring the trials, tribulations, and wounds that come from such encounters. Largely autobiographical, he ends up losing the love of his life, Rosalind, because he is so self absorbed, and poor, and although he has a wonderful intimate writing relationship with Thayer Darcy, a man of the cloth, as they used to say, he ends up bitter and alone after the Monsignor dies. He has heard the truth, just decided no to let it set him free. Selfishness eventually leads to self destruction. His final quote as the book ends pretty much says it all, "I know myself, that is all." And looking back on over 50 years of failures, mistakes, errors, and preplanned stupidity, I can echo those same sentiments. Except I can say "I know Jesus, that is all."
We are told seek and you shall find, and I find it depends on what you are seeking that you find. My friend Richard is the best parts manager/counter man for Mercedes Benz I have ever known. He made a decision early in his career that he would be the best, and studied, read, apprenticed, and then put it all into action, learning from his mistakes, and shunning the harsh criticism. Today he is the go to guy for other dealers, as his investment of time and education, along with desire and dedication made him the best. He knows Mercedes Benz, that is it. And in his professional life, that is what he needs.
But too often an alternative path is taken. A path that leads to destruction, and unfortunately the people on this path too often live through the turmoil, with those caught in the crossfire taking the bullet for them. Unacknowledged, and unloved.
I saw Gene Roddenberry speak at UNM in 1976, long before the Star Trek mania had set in. He made a revealing comment on the success of his show. He took normal events that people could associate with, and put them in an outer space setting. And the rest is history. Great writers do this, and one of my favorite Twilight Zones is called the Monsters are Due on Main Street. In it a quiet neighborhood, where everyone knows everyone's business, or so they think, see a bright light. A flying saucer they think, so they go about investigating it. As the one neighbor in charge starts to go door to door, their imagination turns to fear, their fear to mistrust and their mistrust to hate. When they notice a house empty, they start rumors about the guy-even to the point of he is the alien-he is different after all. A noise is heard in the bushes and they throw rocks at it, hurting a teen ager who was listening, afraid of the mob. Finally complete paranoia takes over as they attack each other, while the aliens stand on the hill congratulating themselves on their quest. Much easier than they thought, they had overestimated the humans. Start a rumor and let them self destruct. No shots fired, it isn't necessary. They will attack each other. And so we do. On Main Street and others, but sadly within churches and our Christian family.
I have seen first hand building programs split a church, over differences in carpet color, or how many classrooms our egos really need. Have the pastor speak the truth, and interrupt your sin laden life, and many a person has turned on him. "How could he be so wrong, he was so smart when he agreed with me last week? they ask. Many so called brothers act no different outside the church than they do before they became a Christian, but who is that other guy they are on Sunday? And when the world sees them acting like them, they wonder why they need to change-that guy is no better than me, and he says he is going to heaven, why change? In fact he is worse, a hypocrite, I don't want to be like him. And so they don't. And don't go to heaven. And you thought it took words to witness-your witness is on display 24/7.
You see from Amory Blaine to the Monsters on Main Street, God has made us a people who need relationships, but are not really good at them. We don't like the way she looks in the morning, we divorce her. The service department cheeses you off, you go somewhere else. The pastor talks about sin, and you don't like it, or the color of the carpet, so you leave. But not without letting everyone else know how inferior that business or church was. Or better yet, how superior you are for noting it, just in the nick of time. And we enter into relationships with God like this, bringing Him to our level, instead of rising to His. God must be smart, He agrees with me. To quote Dirty Harry, "yeah..."
God has built two desires into everyone-the desire to be forgiven, and the desire to be loved. And only in Jesus Christ do you find these. Amory Blaine couldn't grasp this, as he tried to change all his friends to his way, to make him the center of their universe, only to end up lonely and broken. Captain Kirk knew this, as much as he loved his crew, it was the Enterprise that he worshipped, and would die to protect. But the monsters on Main Street were more like us than we will admit. "I don't understand it, they're stupid. They disagree, I'll get revenge. They're different, something must be wrong with them." The problem being you, with your "I's" on yourself.
And that is why the gospel truly is good news. It gets our eyes off us, and onto God. We have instant access to the solutions to our problems. If only Amory had called out to God, and listened to Thayer Darcy, he might not have been so miserable-I can tell you Fitzgerald would not have sold so many books! We relate to Amory fallen better than him successful. We are like him, we are him! But thankfully there are many representatives of God on earth, Christians he calls us, and we are to assist, and point you to God. As teachers, helpers, and servants-we represent God, and we don't have all the answers-we have the answer-Jesus! He forgives us, so that we can come to Him. And He forgives us, because He loved us first, while we were yet sinners He died for us.
Today you may have monsters on your Main Street. Scott will be telling Kirk "Captain I'm giving her all I've got!" And it ain't enough! Or you may be sitting-bummed out and disappointed in life at the end of a pier-wondering if it is all worth it. But God, two great words, is there. He is bigger than any words that seem like monsters used against you. Jesus knows, He endured them and said if you represent Him you will suffer, too. He is bigger than any situation you are in. He's given all He's got, His life, and when they thought they had killed him on the cross, He came back. And we too that believe will be resurrected with Him someday. And when you seem like it just isn't worth it anymore, He is there to remind you how much He loves you. And leaves you with a choice-will you let me love you? He chose us-will we choose Him?
The answer is easy, but the process can be complex. People are generally involved, and we can screw up anything. But Jesus heals the broken hearted if we let Him. Right now is a perfect time to let Him. So come in off the dock, and know Him, admittedly we do not know ourselves. He knows our situations, nothing is uncommon to Him, He has been through it all-so let Him show you the way out. Take down your deflector shields and let Him in! As for the monsters, two words can make them go away-I'm sorry. These self created problems can go away with repentance-the answer to all sin. Turn from sin today, and look into the eyes of Christ. And find that something you are looking for, is really someone.
"Beam me up Scotty, no signs of intelligent life here." And leave the monsters where they belong-behind.
love with compassion,
Mike
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