Tuesday, July 7, 2015

point of no return









At the ripe old age of 20 I had a title, sort of a position, and a lot of responsibility as a Traffic Manager for London Records.  Sounds important, huh, but what I really did was organize shippers to get the latest releases, and mostly older ones to the record stores.  Based outside of Newark, New Jersey, it was quite a boiling pot of people I worked with.  The employee base was mostly Cuban or Puerto Rican, so this white boy learned quickly his high school Spanish didn’t work in the real world.  I had a Columbian secretary, Alba Mary, who smiled a lot and said “OK, Mike,” to whatever I asked her to do.  It was only my boss Mario who would interpret so she would get anything done.  And the work environment could be a hostile one, as the Cubans didn’t like the Puerto Ricans, who they were jealous of because they were true Americans, remember the line from “America” in West Side Story, “Puerto Rico in America....”  And the Puerto Ricans hated the Cubans because they were refugees.  To the point they had a floor to ceiling fence to separate them.  They came to work at different times, breaks at different times, and had bathroom privileges at different times.  But mostly they were nice people, doing a job, or trying to, and just trying to get through life.  Survival we call it now, and it wasn’t any different then.  “OK, Mike.”
But as Traffic Manager I chose the trucking companies, and the graft was the way business was done.  Which I learned quickly.  From expensive liquor, ball game tickets, and other types of bribes, excuse me, incentives, I chose the truckers who would pick up and deliver the records, and sometimes on a timely basis, as when a new release came out.  Within a few months I had cheesed of some old time truckers, but built a base of new ones I could trust.  And of course was compensated for it, but also threatened by it.  Records is big business, and so many deals went on under the table, behind the scenes that I had upset small kingdoms within the company, but I found out later the man I replaced had  his hand in everyone’s pocket, and did nothing for free.  I did my job, which made me a threat.  And in any language, it helps to have friends.  For example...
There was a black group hitting the charts big from Newark.  Billboards everywhere proclaimed them, their first album was still selling hot, and we had trouble keeping them in stock, with orders when they arrived from the record plant to ship them immediately.  And everyone wanted them yesterday, including the trucking companies to deliver.  And here is where it got interesting, scary is really a better word.  This group had just come out with a new album, unreleased yet, but advertised.  The group was hot, the demand was hot, what I was to learn later was this record would be hot.  I had just started, and all the talk was about this album, when a man approached me, offered me an envelope with cash in it, a lot of cash, $5000 I would learn later, to get him an early shipment.  Befroe the release date.  I was to fill a trailer load with their album, leave it parked, and they would pick it up after dark.  I played stupid, really I was, and said “I would have to clear that,” and he went elsewhere. I never said a word, and so did his cash.  Later I was to find out who really parked the trailer outside, full of albums, so this distributor could have them on the streets a week before their release.  Illegally.  Talk about a hot album, these were, bypassing everyone at London, and there was quite an uproar.  Fortunately I was out of the picture on this one, this was big time piracy, record piracy, not a bootleg, but the real album hitting the streets before the jocks had it to play.  And only through these carefully selected record stores, and not the established ones.  All Newark was ablaze with the album, I kept a promotional copy as a momento of how life works in the real world.  Not my world, and as Alba Mary would say, “OK, Mike.”  $5000 would buy a lot of fun in 1974, over $50,000 in today’s money, but it also bought a lot of trouble, as the guy who took the bribe was to find out.  He disappeared, never heard from him again, and no one at work ever asked what happened to him.  But we all knew....or did we really?
Once he had accepted the bribe, he passed the point of no return.  On every ride when we pass the half way mark to our destination, it is the same distance to get there as it would have been to turn back.  He had passed that mark, and suffered the consequences.  He had sold out, he belonged to someone else now, and we talked in hushed tones about what had happened to him.  No one knew for sure, all we knew was he was gone.  He couldn’t and didn’t turn back, and suffered for it.  Just like Judas did at the Last Supper.  Judas’ greed had gotten the better of him, and even when taking the first communion with Jesus, being offered one last chance at salvation, he rejected it.  He had gone past the point of no return, and we see one of the most tragic scenes in history played out.  Complete rejection of Jesus Christ.  He had every chance to repent, yet he refused.  Call it his Gethsemane, for as Jesus cried out to his Father to take the cup and change the events, Judas also was to die the next day.  Jesus offered to die for our sins, Judas died for his own.  So close, yet past the point of no return.  Where God strengthened Jesus, Satan strengthened Judas, and he no longer could resist.  So Jesus tells him to do what you are to do quickly, he knows Judas has gone beyond the point, and will not return.  And as John tells us, “he went out.”  It was night, and he vanished into it.  Much like the man who sold out for $5000, except Judas is known forever in scripture.  And so many of us who refuse to turn to Christ and repent are forgotten.  But not by God, and not by Jesus.  Until your last dying breath the spirit is calling.  Yet we accept a quick bribe, rather than a long term salvation. 
Jesus went to the cross knowing he would be resurrected.  And when we face death, by knowing him we will be resurrected also.  Judas denied who Jesus was, sold out to Satan, and is in hell forever.  Past the point of no return, he suffers for his sin, coming so close to the only one who cold save him.  How close are you to Jesus?  Have you sold out and gone past the point of no return?  If you are reading this, you haven’t, for God is patient that none should perish, and is keeping you alive, maybe only one more day to be saved.  As we wondered about my friend who took the bribe, “what did he profit by selling out?”  And what do we profit when we gain the world but lose our soul?
Today is the day of salvation.  Judas denied his, took his own life, his guts exploding out when he hung himself.  Jesus went to the cross voluntarily for us, so we can have life.  And not follow Judas to hell.  Til death do us part is more than a marriage vow, only in death do we not face heaven.  Hell is the point of no return.  Heaven is a place of no escape also.  We won’t want to leave, yet there are gates on hell to keep those in who denied Jesus.  They want to escape...so here’s your chance to avoid hell altogether.  Pearly gates of heaven, or gates of hell keeping you in.  Your choice, Judas made his, I’ve made mine.  I chose Jesus....before my point of no return knowing when Jesus returns I will go with him.. Resurrected.  And the choice is up to you...and to paraphrase Alba Mary, when I asked Jesus into my life, he said “OK, Mike.”  Like the Doobies sang, “Jesus is just alright, oh yeah!”
love with compassion,
Mike
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