Thursday, January 26, 2017

the weekend is willing, the spirit is weak

















After being escorted out of Florida by their State Police, it was back to Jersey, and find work.  Which landed me a job as Traffic Manager for London Records @$150/week, good money in 1974.  Where I would learn about life not taught in any class, and get to use my Spanish learned from Miss Ludi’s Spanish class.  Sort of.  She didn’t teach us to cuss or swear, but I picked that up easily the first week, and learned Castillian Spanish is different than that from Puerto Rico and Cuba, which is different from Spanglish in San Diego.  But I was young, and learned fast.  And suddenly this white boy from an upper middle class town was thrust into International intrigue.
My boss was a big Italian man, Amos Romeo, who drove a 1967 GTO, and always wanted to race against my R90S, just to see how fast I really was.  But my immediate bosses, Mario and Julio were both of Puerto Rican descent and great guys.  Julio was quiet and got things done, Mario outgoing and very helpful, translating for me when I needed it-constantly.  But his English had a heavy accent, and many time he had to write what he was saying so I, we could understand.  But he always had a smile, and provided me with a Columbian secretary named Alba Mary.  Very pretty with heavy red lipstick, her English consisted of “OK Mike,” and a smile.  She did the filing, fortunately the numbers are bilingual, and always had a smile.  Now my job was to route freight, and the gifts, incentives from trucking companies ran from tickets to ball games to your favorite bottle.  Always being reminded of a local guy from Brooklyn with his own truck, who stayed until closing.  He would take all not picked up, and many times Mario would tell me, “send more freight Al’s way, his kid needs braces,” or “he’s having a rough month.”
But within this huge warehouse, many sub-companies existed.  One consisted of two guys, Tony and Carlos, who both talked so fast you never could understand them, and when you said “what,” talked louder, until finally throwing their hand in their air, and commenting on your heritage.  Ironically these two worked in a cage, I think for our protection more than theirs.  The packers consisted mostly of Puerto Ricans, with one Maria, built like a refrigerator, would always pinch me when I walked by.  Her co-worker Benito, loved the Yankees, and most of our conversations were either “Yankees, si” pointing to his ever present Yankee cap, or telling Maria a dirty joke and making her pinch me.  But we all somehow got along....except for the Cubans.
We had to keep the Puerto Ricans and Cubans separate, some places with a floor to ceiling fence.  They hated each other.  The Cubans were refugees, and not Americans, the Puerto Ricans real Americans, and hated because they were.  Go figure.  But the head Cuban was a dignified man, who before his exile had been a high government official, very respected and classy, called Sargento.  Who ran his area like the military.  But his counterpart from Puerto Rico was El Tigre, who looked like an old Tony Montana.  A cigarette with ashes about to drop were always between his lips, and El Tigre enforced the law.  He was often seen during working hours holding court with his men, no one interfered.  I think he tolerated me, I always went to Julio for help with him.  Add in the fork lift driver from Haiti, St. Cyprian La Prince, the Jewish guys in the office who ran London Records, Freddy, the black chauffeur of the owner of the place, known as the “Old Man,” and we were truly a diverse, if not interesting work place.  But somehow we all got along, and I think Alba Mary would agree, “OK, Mike.”
We all might agree, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is for the weekend.  And for 40+ hours a week, I was willing, weekends not included.  I was not saved yet, and my two worlds were converging, work in a West Side Story atmosphere, and home life, party central.  And the two were taking a toll on each other.  Something had to give, and when BH offered me a junior executive job, I took it.  Seems the flesh is weak, the dollar stronger.  And when influenced by ego and pride, along with a title, “hasta luego London Records, hola Polychrome.”  But as Christians we fight the same battles, and I soon found the spirit was willing, at least in church on Sunday mornings, and the flesh week once I left.  Sometimes I felt the words of Jesus asking me like he did Peter, “could you not watch for me one more hour?”  I was physically awake, but spiritually asleep.  And not sleeping very well.  And I found in the diversity that I had left behind more secure than in the new world with Jesus I was in now.  Pressure from the church, well meaning brothers, and others who knew what was best for me.  Soon I found the human sense of independence growing, as the freedom I knew in Christ had turned to rules, regulations, and all the things I didn’t want to have to do with religion.  I would brag “I am a Christian,”  to other Christians, yet never have to explain who I was to my secular friends.  They accepted me pretty much as I was, and didn’t put restrictions on me.  The one place I thought I could find acceptance, the church wasn’t it.  I had confused a walk in Christ with the church.  And the two are not the same at all.  I soon knew how Peter felt, where was that extra hour when I needed it?
And it was found in prayer.  Seeking God, going beyond church doctrine and pleasing them.  Keeping up an appearance of happiness, while bummed inside.  It was when I started to trust the spirit, that my life changed.  I had the knowledge, knew the songs, carried a Bible.  But in my submission to Jesus, I found that extra hour Jesus spoke of, to do what he asked, and only what he asked.  I had been impressed by so-called strong Christians who were always doing things in the church, but found in my weakness, like Paul did, God’s strength was made perfect.  And soon the joy of the Lord became my strength.  My understanding limited at best, I learned to trust.  No negotiations, trust Jesus not for something, just worship him for who he is.  He is God incarnate, savior, and when he became Lord of my life, the I knew of the freedom he promised.  In the spirit, not of man, should I boast.  It was OK to be scared, but to find strength in Christ.  To be honest, and not a facade.  When a friend and I talked about death, we agreed it was scary, although we knew heaven waited.  We had never done death before....but Jesus has.  And in him, we will too be resurrected.  With no ethnic barriers, no fences between denominations, no arguing over King James vs. NIV.  It will be all about Jesus.  So what are you waiting for? 
When you are sure in your weakness, you will get strength from God.  If you are having problems today, go to Jesus, just as you are.  He knows, your friends probably do too, the church may ignore it.  Only Jesus loves you as you are, and doesn’t want you to stay that way.  He promises life abundantly, overflowing in joy.  The spirit is willing, deny the weekend flesh, even of church, and trust God.  To which even Alba Mary would agree, “Jesus, OK Mike.”  In any language, at any job, on any weekend, he is Lord.  Jesus is Lord.  Jesus Christo es el senor.  There, see how easy it is.  Bet you didn’t know the language of love was bi-lingual too.
love with compassion,
Mike
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