homesick for the road

After over 11,000 miles in 37 days and 31 states, it was time to go home.  I knew it, we knew it, but yet the desire to push on was still there.  But you know when it is time, and somehow the last 100 miles either take longer, or are the shortest ones of the ride.  Depending upon your outlook.  There is always one last stop, one last Coke and Tootsie Roll before the last few miles, and a time to reflect.  The world has changed, or is it really you that has changed, as your locality is now bordered by oceans instead of county lines.  Time zones and long days now are winding down, and tonight you will be sleeping in your own bed again.  Taking a shower in your own shower, watching TV with channels you know.  Many things will have remained as you left them, but your outlook is different.  Often times while stopping I have noted while looking at whatever I am riding, it is just the two of us, or three of us, and my bike has become an old friend.  We know each other well.  But in a few hours the cover will go back over her after a wash and service until the next ride calls.  Bikes cannot talk, or is it we cannot hear them, but a relationship has been formed, one that every time I go into the garage I remember. 

After long trips I do long to get home, it is more than just tonight’s destination, it is home.  A time to get back to normal, whatever that may be.  To enjoy not eating out, to go through boxes of mail, reintroduce yourself to the dog and cat, and sit back and reflect.  Looking for words to explain what you have just done.  Some will think you are crazy, some be jealous, some just compare it to their two weeks going from airport to motel to outlet centers, thinking “people are the same everywhere.  Why would anyone want to travel by motorcycle?”  They come back worn out, you come back rested, tired yet with the desire to go another day.  You had an experience, they had two weeks.  Of long lines, airplane and airport hassles, generic motels, and meals in the coffee shop.  You saw America, and the stories you tell will be much different, a testimony to both man and machine, roads and meals, weather and dealing with it.  And you cannot wait to get back on the road and do it all over again, just on different roads.  You saw so much, only to discover how much there is left to see.  Places that you will return to see just where that other road goes, the study of maps starts again, and even though some roads are only one inch on the map, they go on forever when riding them.  Homesick for the road....with only one cure....let’s ride!

Being home and wishing to be on the road remind me of the battle between the flesh and the spirit.  I love being home, but I have been given a desire to tour, and God meets it.  I get caught between the two worlds wanting to be both places, and forget to enjoy where I am today.  I have dreams and goals like anyone else, but when spirit inspired, many times I have to add “give me patience to them.”  I’m ready, the bike is ready, the road calls, but God says wait.  The hardest answer to prayer we get.  And in waiting reveals why, a lesson to remember until the next time I become inpatient.  While there is always some well meaning Christian there to remind me God has a plan for your life.”  He does, I know.  But what if you don’t know God and are told that?

Dealing with people on the edge, those who have been in jail, in hospitals, in the military, or under strict discipline, telling them God has a plan for them is like more orders, less freedom.  Great, everyone else tells me what to do, now God is too.  We mean well, but the message doesn’t come across.  Maybe my friend Frank put it best to me, “God has given you the desire of your heart, and it is him.  He has given you a passion to ride, and is now providing it.”  God’s plan for you, his purpose is for you to know Jesus and be saved.  To find the freedom lacking in religion or the things of the world.  To find peace and live free, no matter the situation.  And that freedom is only found in Christ.  Where the only rule is love, and where we have the spirit to guide us.  To comfort us, and intervene when we ask.  We get to make the choice, for true love demands a choice.  You cannot legislate love, and God is true love.  In him I can reflect back and worship him for what he has done in my life, and find encouragement and a desire to go on.  To ride farther, to find new roads, to enjoy new blessings.  To have more of Jesus in my life with no bounds. 

What do you and Jesus talk about?  As a friend, do you share your ideas and rides with him?  On one afternoon alone with him, I told him about a trip I had taken, and he listened intently, he wanted to know more, to listen as I told him how much fun I had.  He listened, and our relationship grew....he was with me the whole ride, and it was like two riders sharing thoughts and memories of the ride. He saw things I missed, and reminded me of things I had forgotten.  Personally.  That’s the kind of passion he has given me.  The desire to leave and to come home, but never alone.  Always with him.

Sometimes I feel guilty because I desire heaven so much, but I am enjoying the time here so much.  He reminds me of on earth as it is in heaven, and how this is part of his plan for me.  I’ll go home when it is his time, not mine.  So until then, I will continue to ride, to spend time with him, living today, safe and secure that I am in his plan.  And that if I stray, he is the way back too.  And that soon he will be taking me home forever, and soon is always sooner than expected. 

The anticipation of heaven, and the last 100 miles to home have nothing in common, yet everything in common.  This morning I find myself homesick for the road, and Jesus is that road.  A direction, not just a destination.  More than words on a page or lines on a map, he is the freedom we seek in riding.  That’s his plan for us, to know him and live life abundantly.  Overflowing in him....I wish to be with him in heaven, yet as Paul says I will continue to stay for your pleasure and joy of faith.  Wherever the spirit of the Lord is there is liberty.  Maybe a Coke and Tootsie Roll are in order....a hundred miles from here.  But never far from Jesus. 

love with compassion,

Mike

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Oklahoma and Joe

Our friend Joe in Oklahoma understands the biker brotherhood.  He is also one of the few people I would ride anywhere with, and have ridden across country with him three times.  He is someone we love and trust, but Joe also knows good places to eat, which when combined with the other two really sets him apart.  So when riding through Oklahoma, we always try to hook up with him, if he is around, as he is an over the road trucker.  And even if the meals may not appear gourmet quality, the company and fellowship always is.

On our last Torches Across America ride, the four of us were riding Route 66 between Tulsa and Troy, Illinois, trying to bypass both the rain and the boredom of I-44.  We pulled into an old cinder block building, that he had passed by many times, and said it looked good, which meant the lot was big enough to park his rig.  So in we walked, after dodging the numerous potholes in the once gravel lot,  and walking in with our rain gear on, all activity in the room stopped.  But when the waitress, aka the hostess called us Sweetie, we knew we would be OK.  All locals except for us, she knew their order before they sat down, with us it was different, and all the eyes were on us.  And soon we were engaging them in conversations, listening to their stories, and invited to sit with them.  We heard their war stories, were shown pictures of their grandkids, and we all left as friends.  Invited back with a “hope you have a safe trip, and stop in next time you are in Oklahoma.”  I never have, but when I go by the place smile and wave, even though I cannot remember its name.  As I recall, it may not have had one....but thanks to Joe we made new friends and memories.

In 2011 when the tornados hit Joplin, Missouri, Andrew and I decided to go out and volunteer to help.  Which took us through Tulsa, where we hooked up with Joe and had a late lunch.  Knowing the kind of old diners I like to eat in, he had been spying one for awhile, on old, old Route 66 downtown.  A old rail car, he had never eaten there, but knew we would like it, so in we went.  Again greeted with a “Hi Sweetie,” we knew we were in good hands, and between the chicken fried steak and mashed potatoes, we were full.  He had been telling the waitress how we were from San Diego, and going out to help in Joplin, when two big pieces of pie showed up, on the house.  Already full, we never would have ordered them, but ate them as one bite and they had you.  But when going to pay, the two women working that afternoon met us at the register, and waved off our money.  They bought our meals, they were touched by our compassion for those in Joplin, and wanted to help us out.  Even refusing to take a tip....another place I cannot remember the name, but will always remember the meal, and another road food find by Joe.  There have been others, these two meals stand out, more for the company than the food, and if Oklahoma, if they call you Sweetie, you know you are in good hands.  Just tell them Joe sent you....

We all have Joes in our lives, friends who we only see every few years, but stay close with. Friends you don’t have to talk or text everyday, your relationship goes deeper and is beyond words.  We miss Joe sometimes, but know our lifestyles can go in different directions, so when we meet, it is special.  A man wiser than me once noted “if you hang around a barber shop long enough eventually you will get a hair cut.”  And Oklahoma because of Joe has grown on me.  Great roads make great rides, but are best shared with friends and loved ones, and over a meal is second to riding.  I think Jesus would agree, as he spent his whole life on the road.  He was born on the road, remember his parents were travelling.  Paul met him on the Damascus road.  Philip met the eunuch in the spirit along the road.  Jesus rode the colt into Jerusalem on the road, was crucified along the road, and was seen by over 500 after his crucifixion, not in church, but on the road.  He was out where the people were, taking the gospel to them, making it real.  He sent his disciples out two by two, where, on the road, where the gospel was recorded.  Food was also important to him, as he fed the 5000 twice, but made it more personal one night on shore with Peter, preparing him for ministry when he told him three times “feed my sheep.”  And if you recall, it was a picnic lunch that Jesus used to show Peter it was OK to eat all things, letting him know the gospel was not just for Jews, but Gentiles also.  Food and Jesus go hand in hand, so do Jesus and the road.  So when I tell people Jesus, riding,and road food, it don’t get any better, a trinity of thoughts refer me to the trinity of God the father, Jesus his son, and the holy spirit.  How many meals have become great ones just because Jesus was along?

But yet we skip meals with him, maybe only pray occasionally, visit church twice a year, and read our Bible occasionally, if we can find it.  But I find the more time spent with him, I become more like him.  Just like hanging out in a barber shop, I soon want a haircut, I want to look nicer, to smell nicer, and be more like him.  Slowly realizing it is the spirit working on me inside that changes me on the outside.  He does all the work, I make the choices to change or not.

Looking back the meals ate with Joe, the food was nothing special.  It was the memories, the friends and the time spent.  And even if I could, I would never go back to them, it would not be the same.  Jesus sets these times apart as special.  How much time do you spend with him?  Is it special?  Is it the food or the company?  Remember the 5000 thought it was about the food, and would get hungry again.  Do we hunger after Jesus the same way?  Full one day, empty the next, but caught up in a religious cycle?  When we are hungry we want to eat, now.  When we are spiritually hungry, we want Jesus, now.  And he is available, now.  Over the years on many rides in many states with many different people, I have had many meals.  Jesus somehow has come up in the conversation, and no one has ever gotten up and left before they were done eating.  Don’t preach with your mouth full, but share him as he becomes a part of you.  Where it becomes natural, and with his supernatural love, the meal will somehow taste better.  Even if not in Oklahoma.  Jesus and road food....

Maybe it is as simple as taking communion, “do this in remembrance of me.”  Maybe that is why we ask the blessing before we eat, we remember him, and anticipate more memories to come.  Oklahoma is calling this summer, I can smell Swadley’s already, another Joe favorite.  Lucille’s lunch special will not go uneaten.  And I know Jesus is along for the ride.  We hope to see Joe, maybe ride a few miles and eat a meal together, such are the times friends look forward to and back on.  On the road to freedom, on the road with Jesus....”what’ll you have Sweetie?”

love with compassion,

Mike

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gone but not forgotten

We see signs of life along the road as we travel, but it is the signs of death and struggling to just get by that are found off the highway exits.  Where life may have once begun, where it once thrived, and now sits, waiting to die, and in some cases, dead already, just too poor to know it.  How many old towns have we traveled through in the Midwest, where old buildings and houses are boarded up, and the lots in decay.  Once proud and full of life, they now sit as a testimony to neglect and empty wallets as they are too poor to live, but also too poor to die.  “Why doesn’t someone tear them down, or rebuild them?  They were cool old places years ago?”   But in some cases the cost to raze them isn’t there, if they had the money they wouldn’t be in the shape they are now.  Some cases, the old Packard plant in Detroit comes to mind, the back taxes are so high you can buy the places cheap, if you can afford the taxes.  And the clean up, which many times exceeds the value of the land.  Add to that if it is deemed a historical landmark, it must meet certain criteria....and the list goes on long after the money is gone.

Empty car dealerships dot many old towns, acres of asphalt where once shiny new cars sat waiting for new owners, now the dust and weeds occupy the lot.  Plywood has replaced the showroom windows which were broken out, and graffitti covers anything that can be covered with spray paint.  Artifacts found inside where when the owner finally closed the door, he just left behind.  Old memories of what once was, with only dreams and visions of what they had hoped to be.  Shopping centers, dealerships, businesses, and finally the people who supported them all moving first to the outskirts, then out of town for good.  To places that promise what their old town used to, a life and a future.  Hope and promise, and the old properties just sit, with each year less desirable as the time and weather take a beating on them.  With only our imaginations left to wonder how it once was...and that it will never happen to us.

My Grandma used to think Bangor, Pennsylvania was the best place on earth.  Once rich in slate and covered with mills making clothes, today it is like a town on life support.  Proud old buildings lay in decay, when they stopped using slate for blackboards and roofs, when the clothes were cheaper made overseas, the town lost its purpose and its people, who had to go elsewhere to find work.  Who even though the products made elsewhere were cheaper, couldn’t afford them.  A scene repeated over and over across America.  Towns and people who never started out to end up like this, but who did anyway.  All within eyesight of prosperity and new, but not welcome, for they cannot even afford the ticket price to enter.  A new and different poor that grips America, like scenes once seen of Europe after WWII, the Big One, we believe it can never happen to us.  NIMBY, Not In My Back Yard, we believe.....

But someday the places that are destitute will be bought and new buildings and towns created.  But what of the lives left behind?  What of the poor who cannot clip the coupons for the new market?  Who cannot get financed for the used car?  Who cannot find work in the new businesses, because they are too old, too poor, or too something that society has no use for.  And while they sit begging at the entrances, the fortunate go by and and curse them, “get a job...”  OK,  you hire them.  and drive off safe and secure it will never happen to them.  Roll up the window, turn up the sound and drive away.  Your town could never get like that, or your church.  Could they?  Yet Jesus tells us the poor will always be among us, and we don’t have far to look.  With over 5000 homeless kids on the streets of San Diego, you may pass them and not know it.  But they are not lost to God, only to his people.  To his church, who he condemns in Matthew 25.  While the church, us, is bragging on how many demons they cast out, or how rich they were, the trips to Israel, and the numbers they brag about, Jesus tells them “be gone I never knew you.”  He goes on to tell what true ministry is, giving water to the thirsty, food to the hungry, clothes to the naked, visiting those in jail or hospitals, and welcoming strangers, those not like us.  It means getting your hands dirty, maybe driving someone to  job interview.  Inviting them into your home for a shower.  Yet a church I know of brags of the thousand saved on Easter, yet when I asked them to name 10, 5, or even one, came up blank.  Forgetting it was the one lost sheep left behind that Jesus went back after.  They are rotting from the inside, and not knowing it, bragging on numbers and their back account.  More common than you would think.  Yet Jesus remembers every one of them, and asks us to also.

Did you ever wonder why Jesus threw up because the church was accused of being lukewarm?  It was because it made him sick.  Are we causing Jesus to get sick with our religion?  Have we become like an empty building that once was prosperous but lost its purpose?  God’s purpose for us is to know Jesus.  To become godly, to show his love in all situations.  To be imitators of God, godly, not for show, but from the heart.  He wants us to be godly, not a god, but to show the things of Jesus in our daily lives.  Both good and bad, as all things work together for those who love him, and are called to Christ, his purpose for us.  To be saved.  And when we are, we take on godly qualities, we are strong like him, there is no strength like his.  We get power, quiet and strong, for he is powerful.  We become mighty in him, and get wisdom that comes from above, not from a process, procedure, program, or meeting.  We get it because we have Jesus, and we get all of him, and his blessings.  Blessings that show up nowhere on any balance sheet, except in heaven.  And there we are reminded of Jesus’ “that whoever does these things listed above to the last of them, does them to me.”  That’s godly living...

You can only resurrect that that was once alive.  No matter your condition now, Jesus is with you.  He knows your future, and has plans for it.  To give you hope, to pass it on to others.  Look at your life, and see where it is going.  After looking behind.  Jesus promises these things shall follow them that believe.  Love, joy, peace, and patience.  Things that no money can buy.  While it is true some places are too broke to even be torn down, Jesus has the resources needed for you now.  It is called grace, not a church concept, but God in action.   Grace that gives us life, and teaches us how to live in a fallen world.  Grace is the gift a loving father gives to his children.  The same grace that Jesus says “I give to you.”  Available only from Jesus Christ.  Where life begins and continues long after the outer man and the buildings we live in have gone away.  A pretty face may conceal what is inside, but God knows our hearts.  And he never forgets.

Many buildings are falling apart, but not forgotten, just waiting to be resurrected.  Lives are the same way, why should you wait?  For God so loved the world, that never forgot the individual.  Have you?

love with compassion,

Mike

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riding and life....let's get it right

Even though I was dealing with undeveloped film, I was one of the few who worked in the light.  The others, both day and second shift worked entirely in the dark.  Which during the ling winter months of New Jersey made it possible to wake up, go to work, work all day, go home, and go to bed....in the dark.  Without ever being exposed to the light. Making for some strange relationships, and also some unique observations.  The night shift may have an advantage, as they worked in the dark when it was night, but the day shift lived in a dark, sunless, non-lit world.  My occasional trips into the dark took me awhile to get used to it, while those in it moved around freely, I was the blind man, I was in the dark.  While those in the dark all day had to adjust to the light, even if it was dark out, headlights, street lights, neon lights now strained their retinas, while the rest of us just adjusted to the change.  No big deal to us, but it was to them.  Making the bright lights seem brighter, and welcoming the dark where they could see better again.  Blinded by the light, any light, it took some time to adjust for all, from dark to light, or light to dark.  Imagine living a life where there are no shadows, and suddenly being exposed to bright lights.  Where every car coming at you has his high beams pointed right at you. A much different take on “let there be light.”

When we come to the Lord, we come from darkness into the light.  We begin to see things much differently, and begin to grow in Christ.  We are expected to grow, and we each grow at a different pace.  Those who mature faster are known as superstars, while those that struggle and take longer may be looked at as spiritually weak.  But only in the eyes of man, not of God.  Growth is God’s method not ours, yet we are the yardstick by which it is measured.  Some are told that life will change instantly, you are a new creature in Christ.  True, but maturing takes a while, it is a slow process.  I have known men who gave up on the church because they didn’t grow as expected, still struggled with the old life, and soon gave up on themselves.  Bad doctrine mixed with bad teaching has done too much damage to the church.  The gospel is good news, it is the person of Jesus Christ, we are forgiven, and saved.  Yet religion will claim that may not be enough, you need to do this or that to prove you are saved.  Aren’t you glad God made it easy in Jesus for us?  No man can ever live up totally to another person’s expectations. And might just die trying.

Something innate to man does not like change.  But without change there is no growth, and no growth without change.  We read our Bible, pray daily, go to church, doing all the things we are shown to do, but without the spirit, they are good things, but maybe not God inspired.  Some Christians whole Christian experience is just going to church, and it reflects in their lives.  Some get out and live what they are taught, and see the gospel in action, and a different side to Jesus.  Some bail on church, bail on the Bible, confident because they went forward at Billy Graham they are saved.  And that is all there is to it.  Each a different route, but yet some still in the dark, when exposed to the light they are blinded. But it is not God’s light that blinds them...

Some approach a Christian life like a correspondence course of how to ride a motorcycle.  They know all the parts, but if they never sit on one, they are just that, parts.  No interaction, no riding experience.  Do they really know how to ride just because they got their license?  Do we memorize scripture but miss out living it and finding its true meaning?  Very few of us started on 1000 cc super bikes, it was 50 cc Hondas, then 125 Yamahas, big 350 cc Hondas, then a 750, and finally 1000 ccs. With our relationship growing between throttle and brakes each time, each one of us growing at a different rate.  We tell others to ride their own ride, yet when it comes to Jesus, expect them all to be racers the first day.  No wonder some never ride again to church?  Labeled as immature, not as spiritual, maybe even having their salvation questioned.  All based on performance, based on their maturity.  Forgetting that nature teaches us it takes hundreds of years for the giant Sequoias to mature, while a cucumber may only take months.  Have we become a church of cucumbers?  Of possible pickle candidates?   God is not interested making Christian pickles!  He wants men and women to be strong in him, with deep roots.  That last for years.

So do not be discouraged if you do not grow or mature as quickly as others.  That you don’t meet up to a denomination’s demands.  Ride your own ride in Christ, knowing that he provides the growth, and that maturity is death, your arrival at the growth process is over.  As kids we wanted to grow up fast.  Ask any kid how old he is, he is never just 8 or 9, it is 8 and 3/4, or nine, going on 10.  They look forward to growing up and its benefits.  Do we let Christ guide our development in him?  Are we spirit led or religiously influenced?  Maybe the question best asked is are we going in the right direction? If not, God’s prescription is repentance, changing your course, and getting on with your life. 

So some work in the dark, some live in the dark, and some grow, still in the dark.  Seek the light of Jesus today, not the blinding light of religion, but the guiding light of the spirit.  Go where his light is directing you, and if you are passed, OK.  And if you pass others, that is OK too.  Just keep your high beams on low to approaching traffic.  Just as there is undeveloped film, there are undeveloped Christians.  Making film is a process.  Becoming a Christian is easy, living as one is harder.  Start the process today, listen to the spirit, let him guide you, and let there be light in your life.  God has called us out of darkness, don’t worry if you aren’t like Christ yet.  Just make sure you are going in the right direction.  Ride your own ride in Christ.  Knowing the parts of a bike and riding one are two different things.  So is knowing all about Jesus, and personally knowing him.  That’s maturity....and it just isn’t for teenagers any more.

love with compassion,

Mike

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